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The Game of Self

You’ve been playing this game your whole life. This is the game board.

And then “you” showed up on the scene. A little ball of “nothingness” traveled through the horizontal vesica piscis in the middle of the self and ended up as a Godself Realized Noself in the Iself space. 555+0+111 = 666

It’ll take 18 – 30 months till you realize that you are separate from anything and anyone in your environment. Somewhere between 1 1/2 and 2 1/2 years of age you develop what is called a Categorical Self and begin to think of yourself in terms of this and that and me and mine.

Congratulations! You are now an Iself (or individual self) in the Iself space. Most people will live their entire life within the black area of the game board and die as spiritual infants.

Let’s back up a little here and define terms and state the “goal” of this game (if indeed there is one).

What is the Iself? In the context of this mantra, the Iself is the individual self.  It is your personal subjective experience of being you (aka your egoic self).  The Iself is your sense of individuation and is based upon your body, your relationships, your possessions, your worldview, your life story, your preferences and all of the things that differentiate you from other people and form your sense of personal identity. 

What is the Allself?  In the context of this mantra, the “Allself” is the universal self or cosmic consciousness.  The Allself is the everywhere, the everywhen, the everything and the everybody.  The Allself is the cosmic consciousness that is busy being everybody doing everything including being “you.”  We are not separate from the universe within which we find ourselves.  We are all connected to each other and we are all connected to the singular field of consciousness that permeates all of creation.  The Allself is eternal and unchanging.  The Allself is the known known aspect of consciousness also known as the Everythingness.

Another way to visualize the Allself:

What is the Godself?

The Godself is the energy of the eternal or the divine.  The Godself is the  power of creation.  The Godself is beyond comprehension and transcendent.  The Godself is the spark of creation that I am/we are.   The Godself is the powers of manifestation and the flow of creativity.  It is the divine warm light that makes anything possible.   The Godself is unconditional love in its most natural state.  The Godself is the known unknown aspect of consciousness also known as the Beyondness.

What is the Noself?

The Noself is akin to the void.  It has no sense of self at all and exists as pure potential.  It is the “canvas” upon which all of physicality is manifested.  All of us have experienced embodiment of the Noself.  Small children are born without a separate sense of self.  During early childhood, children start to develop a “self-concept,” the attributes, abilities, attitudes and values that they believe define them. By age 3, (between 18 and 30 months), children have developed their Categorical Self, which is concrete way of viewing themselves in “this or that” labels.   Before development of a separate sense of self, small children lack subject / object orientation in relation to themselves and this is why most people do not have any significant memories of themselves as a small child.  The Noself is the unknown unknown aspect of consciousness also known as the “great” or infinite Nothingness.

The “Goal” is to be centered in the Self. The ideal is to simultaneously realize on a transcendent level that you are this individual self, everyone and everything, God and the infinite nothingness.

The Game of Self answers the question “Who am I?” but it doesn’t answer the question “What am I?” The answer to that question is that you are CONSCIOUSNESS. You are all of consciousness, not only the calm, peaceful, restful aspects of consciousness.

The four aspects of consciousness: The unknown known (Iself), the known known (Allself), the known unknown (Godself) and the unknown unknown (Noself)

I will now get to step 2. I will relate aspects of my own awakening as that is what I am most intimately familiar with. On February 26th, 2018, I was given the first 2 lines of the Self Realization Mantra by spirit (source) and had my Allself awakening at 2PM. IMHO, an Allself awakening is the most likely first step outside of the black area of the Iself field. Since you can see everyone and everything, that’s your most likely first step, but it could happen differently. Your results may vary.

I Am Thee Iself

I Am Thee Allself

On February 26th, 2018 at 2 PM, I had my Allself awakening. I crossed over into the 222 consciousness field which is an overlap of the Iself field with the Allself field. I KNEW (not thought, believed, hoped, wished, or felt) that we are all one thing. A thought bubble rose up in my mind at that precise moment and it went like this “Holy shit! I’m me, I’m God, I’m everyone and everything!”

460 days later, on May 31st, 2019, I was gifted the last 2 lines of the Self Realization Mantra. 9 days of mantra chanting later, I had my transcendent awakening to oneness.

I Am Thee Iself

I Am Thee Allself

I Am Thee Godself

I Am Thee Noself

The last 2 realizations happened very quickly in succession on June 9th, 2019 at 4PM. I realized that I am God (the Godself) and the infinite nothingness (Noself) right afterwards.

Points of clarification:

Once you break out of the black Iself space into the overlapping Allself or Godself, there’s no unrealizing that realization. Once you cross over into an overlapping consciousness field, you will tend to bounce around within the various overlapping consciousness fields of which there are 9.

The 111, 333, 555 and 777 consciousness fields are harder to maintain. Chances are that your consciousness will come to rest in the 222, 444, 666 or 888 fields. I tend to find myself in the 888 and 222 fields most often. In the center of the Self, there is no action at all, so if you are engaged in some action in this world, your consciousness is operating from one of the 8 outer overlapping consciousness fields.

It is much more difficult to cross over 2 consciousness fields at the same time.

The Noself is the hardest realization IMHO because the mind cannot easily identify with absolute nothingness.

What is a transcendent awakening to oneness? Immediately after realizing myself as all 4 aspects of the Self, my perspective shifted beyond all identification into a state of awakened presence. I am all 4 aspects of the Self and at the exact same time, I am beyond all labels and all concepts.

May you come to be self realized and then transcend that realization.